The Act of Forgiveness

Mark 11:25
And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.

Boy oh boy, I've really been tested recently on this whole "forgiveness" thing. So, going through this spiritual change has been on heck of test. I'm truly trying to take everything in stride and really practice the act of forgiveness. I'm not talking about the "forgive, but never forget" forgiveness or the true, if I'm going to forgive, I'm really going to forgive and not hold it against you.

Just to give you an idea of the "tests" I've been giving on this matter, I've listed below. Mind you, I've encountered all these "tests" in the past 10 days:

1). Awesome Guy decided to tell (mind you, unprovoke, I did not ask for this info) that he is about to start dating his ex-girlfriend again. (NOTE: I really didn't have a problem with him dating the ex, the problem was we were only broken up for 10 DAMN DAYS at this point, but nevermind that)

2). Some unfortunate "brother" of ours (cause we are one big family) decided to break into my car and steal my iPod, 3 pairs of sunglasses (mind you, one of them were my really fave Bulgari sunglasses and if you know Bulgari, you know the sting in my heart (and damn pocket) that I felt)

3). So, I'm embracing this whole "sista" girl look (which I'm loving), however, this new look really shows me how "special" people can be. I've had complete strangers come and pull my hair, yell out car windows "I have a comb for you", and last but not lease "that's what my hair looks like when I wake up in the morning, I just don't know how you do it" (FYI, that is not a damn compliment).

Either way, all these acts could have made me very, very angry (if you know the old me, then you know (please re-read the "Keeping the Crazy in Check" post, you'll get it), however, I realize as I grow, I really have begin to make some turns in life. Did I totally curse the ex out (a little, but hey, I'm not perfect), but I have truly forgiven him for his mistake and we continue to move forward in establishing a "friendship" (that's a whole 'notha post), did I curse the brother who rob me, no, I prayed for him, cause he must be in dire straits, and honestly, I could re-buy all that stuff, so hopefully, it's getting him some good use and finally, for those who made comments about my hair, I prayed for them too. Honestly, when you're that lost and don't even realize the actions your doing are, well, honestly dumb, and a lesser person would have knocked your ass out for touching them, but I'm trying to grow.

Don't get me wrong, there are bits of anger that pop up when I think about those incidents, but if I were to succumb to those feelings, I wouldn't be growing the way that I should be growing spiritually. So, all I can do is pray for them and me and that one day, we can all forgive each other and maybe do some good.

Ok, I'll get from behind the pulpit now, but figured this might be of inspiration for someone cause I do believe when you hold in anger and don't forgive, it really holds you back from being the true asset to the world you are.

So, hug it out and forgive...



Things I like: Second Funniest Blogger Ever - Kid Fury

So, I had NO INSPIRATION to write a blog post last week. Just too dang tired (not too tired to get kick it though, all my Broke Socialite post coming up soon).

Either way, this is one blogger that I like to follow, Kid Fury. He just kind of rants and raves, but he is funny as sh*t. So, check out his video and if you like him, check out his blog: http://sofurious.com/.

This video is kind of long, but funny. The first 5 minutes had me in tears.

My 40 day fast

So, as I've mentioned in several blogpost, I'm going through a spiritual and maturing change. I'll be the first one to admit, I'm not perfect at all and will never be. However, I'm trying new things in my life I have never tried before and fasting is one of them.

Because I am such as extremist sometimes, I have to just jump right in. I've begun a fast that's considered a fast to confront destructive forces from your life (which I have a TON of). See what I have to do below:

March 9 - March 19: Eat all meals before 6 pm
March 20 - March 27: Eat only two meals a day before 6 pm
March 28 - April 2: Eat only one meal a day
April 3 - April 9: Drink only juices, water and/or tea (Note: I'm going to be so PISSED off this week, lol)
April 10 - April 16: Eat only fruits and vegetables before 6 pm
April 17 - April 23: Slowly begin to add meat to your diet

So, clearly, I'm a little scared that:  1). I'm going to lose a TON of weight I don't need to (mind you, I'm a 140 lbs at 5'8, not to bad if you ask me), 2). That I'll pass out (I'm sure this will happen) and most importanty, 3). I won't finish it.

So, bear with me all as I make my way through this. I was already annoyed and hungry by 6:05 on my first day. Any support you could offer would be great or if not, just take bets as to when I'll go off on somebody in a hungry rage (I say the week 4)

So, to happy fasting!

Snuggle Bear Under Attack (damn destructive forces)

I just added this cause I thought it was funny

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The Original Charlie Sheen: Rick James

Ooohhh man, how we all loved Rick James and his stories. I can across this funny interview with him and a former Rolling Stones reporter. As we Rick loves to do, he adds his input on certain topics in life such as honesty, morality, traveling and more...

So, I present to you "Life According to Rick James"

Video courtesy of PerezHilton.com

Shoe-gasam and hats!!!!

Ha, this is my first blog post, where I'm actually writing about what I'm suppose to write about: Going to fab, VIP events (while being a broke m'fer).

I just kinda luck out on these events. People seem to like me, so they invite me to these places (I wonder do they know that more than likely I'm not willing to go into debt for a $4,000 bag (oh well, not my prob).

Anyway, I actually made it to not one, but two events on Thursday (this speaks volumes for someone who hasn't been out in foreves).

First event was this semi exclusive after hours event at Neiman Marcus (I say semi because if you really wanted to sneak in you could). There were food stations set up with some of the best restaurants Chicago has to offer. More importantly, there were plenty of free, quality booze (if you know me, you know one way to my heart is to feed me liquor) Either way, I saw these fabolous shoes by Christian Louboutin, that I just had to share

Absolutely adorable, from the company's 2011 Spring line

The second event I visited for the evening was the small men's boutique called Shrine, which I came to adore. Clearly, not anything there me to buy, but I certainly have a love for nice quality Men's hats (not New Era or Lids type hats, c'mon son), but quality fedoras, peaked cap (think men in uniform, umm yumm) and more. So, I have a pic of just some of there hats.

They also have a nice selection of quality Italian ties

But more importantly, the cheapest thing in the store is probably the $75 tie (and that's not the quality one). Clearly, I'm not buying a tie for anyone soon (too bad Insensitive Prick/Awesome Guy), coulda had a tie :/), but I did enjoy the premium free liquor (random, I know)

Please note: This is my first post about enjoying free, fab events. I even think it's a bit disjointed, but I'll get the hang of it. So, for those who are thinking and mumbling negative comments as they read, please "LET ME BE GREAT" (in the words of poet laureate, Kanye West (please see post below)) and go kick rocks. I don't see your blog anywhere!

Why won't people let me GREAT

Oh, in the immortal words of the great Kanye West "WHY WON'T YOU LET ME BE GREAT!".

So, as you all know, I'm going through some life changes in the way I handle situations on a daily basis, how I live, etc. Yesterday, I was in bible study (sidenote: you'd be surprised how many don't know what Ash Wednesday really is or why we fast) and the teacher said something that stuck out to me. He said "You must not have faith, you must live faith". What he meant by that was, there are going to be down periods in your life (hell, your day) when you feel down, defeated and just overall negative, but that's normal and try not to let the naysayers who say "well, well, just read the bible or quote you some scripture" make you feel bad cause your having a bad day.In so many words, he said tell them to "f" out, you know what to do and keep it moving. Cause in reality, you'll feel better in few (seconds, minutes, hours, whateves)

Anyhoo, though I'm going this change, I'm still smart-ass, witty Taryn. Now, when I was my most recent relationship, people were like you change. So, it's like "okay, i'm single again, I'm back", but now if I say "Oh, (old hookup) I don't want to hang with you cause you now have a girlfriend", I'm a bitch or I get the response ("oh you got morals now"(what a bitch thing to say)  or if I make some crude joke, I get "oh, what happened to "holier than thou", "thought you were changing". Honestly, the change I'm going through cannot be made in 5 months. I mean it took me 20-something years to get the I am, it's going to take a lot longer to remove my destructive ways.

So, I'm not saying I'm changing to be better than anyone or what anyone does is wrong, I'm just changing for myself to have a more fulfilling life.

So, yes I may still drink a bottle of Jack (hey, I'm a real good time then) or I may make a smart-ass remark, but doesn't make the change in life less significant. I'm still the same person, just improved.

So, again to all those that have some smart sh*t to say..."LET ME BE GREAT" (damn, haters)

Keeping the "crazy" in check

Relationships, work, family, heck..yourself. These are a few things that can drive a mad man crazy.
(Apparently, work and ex-wives can drive you nuts (please see Charlie Sheen).

Well, recently, I've been totally having a case of the "crazies" You know, the ones where you want to jap on someone for no apparent reason or you get that itch to Facebook stalk your ex bf/gf/friend (don't act like I'm the only one).

Why this may seem like a random post, it does have a positive side to it. The "crazies" can totally inspire you (again see Charlie Sheen and his "sheenisms" or goddesses). Due to a crazy few months, I've been inspired to do things I've only talked about doing: really going natural (so long weave), making photography a "real" hobby (hello Canon E05S) and moving the hell out of the house (hello, adulthood, goodbye (homemade dinner, someone else washing your clothes, picking you up, etc)(yea, I'm a spoiled brat). Being "crazy" has also made me realize there are certain things I want to do in my life and I really need to take control of them, one of them getting down and dirty and really helping people.

So, anyhoo, point is, when you feel your about to have a case of the "crazies", turn that self-destructive moment into something positive (better than busting up your ex's window with a 40 ounce (not saying that I did ;)). Also, don't be afraid to talk to people on your down moments (just don't talk to that crazy friend, cause they'll encourage you (again, see hypothetical 40 ounce story above)). You never know, what you may view as a crazy moment, may be of inspiration to someone else.

All else fails, you could rid yourself of the "crazies" like this person:



See how well it worked for "Colonel Winning" here

Case of the Tuesdays

Man, I got a case of Tuesdays. I feel Tuesdays are the worst. Monday, you mentally prepare for on Sunday. Wednesday is hump day. Thursday is almost Friday. And Friday is "time to get it in" day. But Tuesday??? It's like the equivalent of being a Sophomore in High School. You really don't have ish to look forward to (maybe a driver license, if you're smart enough to pass on the first try), but that's about it.

Anyway, I'm a bit of a nerd, and dumb ish like below really make me laugh. Now, I'm know new to this blogging thing and I wanna talk about "deep, serious issues", but fudge it. The below is my inspiration to make it through the day (yes, it did inspire this blog post. Don't like it, go kick rocks). Anyway, hope this spices up your day, like it did mine (damn cat). Enjoy yo self!

3 Que Cats

FYI: Feel free to use the GIF when you're totally having a What the F*CK moment.